I’m cheating on my wife. And this isn't actually about that, although everything seems to be about that lately. It’s about the outside of that; what’s around it.
I'm not a total monster. I said if the kids found out or I thought they knew something, then I'd tell them, and her. But right now everything is working fine enough so I'm in a holding pattern.
It's that sort of thing where my wife knows, and obviously I know, but also I know she knows and she knows that I know she knows. If I say it to her though, if I cop to it, then suddenly she's married to a cheater. And that's something that requires action. Another note is that she actually cheated on me first. It was years ago and honestly I sort of led her to it so I wasn't planning on using that excuse (it's another thing each of us knows the other knows but we chose back then to avoid the whole conflict of it) and anyway these aren't even related incidents.
The kicker though is we go to the same therapist. It's the only guy in our area and in-network. How twisted is that fucking guy? I mean fine he's duty-bound to the confessional or whatever, but he knows we both know and that we know we both know! Why wouldn't he tell us to split up? Or confess? Or do a couples meeting, or just literally anything? But then maybe it would look like he's using one of our sessions to inform the other's advice? Is there a rule against that? Or maybe this is just free money for him. I want to kill the guy. If he wasn't butt-ugly I’d guess she was fucking him but he's not her type, which I know because she said, and I quote, “Dr. Thompson has your nose Dennis.” ■